Monday, September 27, 2004
nya did nothing much today...
To miyavi and toshiya fans,
You guys have your skinny, crazy bishonens. Please stay away from mine. Don't be greedy. Rose from The TraX is officially mine and kaori's. so gettaway. have fun with your totchis and miyavis.
With love,
Kyoru!
hahahahahahaha. ok that was lame but yeah...his mine...XD
H3studio wash up @ 5:09 AM
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Thursday, September 23, 2004
Didn't go to school today...haiz...it wasnt' my choice whether i wanted to go school today. -__- Early in the morning i got a call. My grandmother was admitted to A&E and duh...i had to go...she's okay now...haiz...so that explains my dissapearing act. I was so fucking worried...but before i went with my family to see my grandma i had to sms Tara not to bring my stuff. I didn't want her to carry extra things and then i'm not there...It would be unfair to her ne...but...well...she did not seem to happy about me not coming to school. I cannot control fate today or any other day. I did not purposely never come to school. I know its kinda a minor thing just to return her stuff for my stuff. but i do know behind this minor issue theres a bigger one. I'm probably am too blind to see it. I probably know that she's reading this entry too.
Haiz....i duno what to think these days. My Ns are coming. My Stress level is getting higher tho i'm not showing it. More problems are arriving. Ok this does not concern all of you. turn back. This is only meant for 1 person. You should know.
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You may call me an insensitive bastard for all i care because maybe i really am. I feel that we are drifting furthur apart. We're not doing stuff we do together like the old times. We're not sms-ing alot like we used to. We don't spend hours talking on the phone anymore. It's alright to blame me because i play a part in this friendship. Right from the start of our friendship. I remember telling you: I don't want our friendships to be like all my failed friendships. I want you to tell me what your problem is in the friendship and then we shall try to compromise.
Thats what i told you. In actual fact i do miss you alot. Sometimes i don't have time to be with you but all those times i was with you, i cherished it. I may seem that i couldn't care less about you or whatever ur perspective of me is now but i'm really busy. The Ns are like killing me. I had a talk with Mizu on this once...she advice me that i shouldn't really care much about this cuz this affects my studies. It's true. I made a promise tho...after Ns are over i would want to solify our friendship further. You know why? i never made an intention of loosing you ever. I've never wanted to desert you either. Remember about the quote above? yeah i have a prob with you. I'm telling you now. Sometimes i feel you are unapproachable. Thats my only problem. It's like i want to approach you but i get this feeling that i'm not wanted. Sometimes i want to say things to you but you just walk pass me like as if i'm not there. and yea sometimes i'm afraid of you because your anger...whoa....hahah you get what i mean right? Then again if you need me, just call me and i'll be there. You're like my lil sister and i really miss your funny weird antics. You've always been my best friend. I never doubt that. I don't know if whatever i say has an effect on you or anything. But do think about it. I've put myself in your shoes and understood what you're going thru. Bear with it a little longer. This i ask of you. In my hearts of hearts i never wanted to offend you upset you or do anything that makes our friendship turn sour. I hope you do understand. I have a big Ego and pride but for our friendship i'd be happy to be the first one to say sorry. Forgive me?
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well i'm back to studying...tomorrow got maths test. *Dies*....well see you guys around~ now...getaway!!!!!!! (not gay ta huey ah!)
H3studio wash up @ 7:30 AM
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Sunday, September 19, 2004
Ah, Today i was at Waseda Shibuya senior Highschool. Seiransai was fun and full of weird people. ahaha i was late...XD ok anyway once we reached there...we sign in the school then we go to the bazaar. i can't remember the sequence of it but i went for the play, had tea ceromony (one of my fav ceromony...that is as long as i dun have to serve it) then see 4 bishonen but unfortunately hip hop guys one...and then...watch free show...some cute guy go change clothes unaware we were watching him XD...blah blah blah...ooo went to haunted house room. Damn kakkoi yet omoishiro...i wanna be the ghost too...the chanting reminded me of Amafurase tanmania...so i kept saying that anyway...hahah Kaori was like freaked out. scream really loud till i go death. the twins decided to leave before us. later went back to the gym and made a new friend...Rika-san. lol she's so genki...and they played stay away...and i started singing. so she ask me whether i like haido? and then we were fangirling...hi fives and be genki with each other. fan girling some more...then the guy ask me.. u like laruku en shierou? i was like YES!!! and he said...so aso like X-japan.... i was like YESS!!! lol...wahahah we all hyper...then we all do limbo...rika like fell forward...so cute yet funny. then they play natsu matsuri by white berry. Me kaori and Akane started singing it. Rika and wakana was shocked that we knew the song. hahaha. Rika-san said she want to go japan but she can't -_- sad ne...i was like it's ok...one day...then baka shiro had to butt in...then he ask what we talking about...we both were like "Himitsu!!" hahaha...then we were both like "this is my new besto furendo" lol Tomodachi!!! hahaha we exchange keitai no. later on...thats when the shonens decided to play with the "Snow" hahaha they spray everyone...poor Rika-san...she got sprayed all over and then she cannot breathe cuz the spray smell horrible...hahaha after that we said our good byes.
I'm Mitsuko's unknown sister...Souma Miyako... hahaha....
my nerdy dorky self....
two delinquents...always go detention one...
reading news paper abt cross dressing XD
Spastic me trying to act cool...
We went to Ginza plaza later on. eat at KFC...i no money desho... i drink Isu Milo ...T_T then later go take purikura. Tama and totchi went to play pool. The rest studying. me, kaori and Xeno went home...haiz... yeah...thats abt...it....oooooo i make new friends...oo yah....Ryosuke help me find my wallet...hahaha his engrish not bad desho!!! hahah doubt i'll meet him again. I'm starting to speak like Rika-san...XD... okie then..jya
H3studio wash up @ 6:13 AM
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Thursday, September 16, 2004
H3studio wash up @ 2:20 AM
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Monday, September 13, 2004
Didn't go school today...needed lotsa sleep and then alot of piano playing....X_x talked to totchi all the way till 3 to 4 am..*yawns* i didn't know got X-japan techno..-_-;; exchange a couple of songs..ok a no. of songs...mostly talking crab/crap XD...ok whateverlah. hmm so still thinking whether i should go to the seiransai thing...-_- i might not be able to go...lalalala Thursday is dooms day...my piano practical exam....hah....-_-; guess what? yaoi doesn't really interest me these days...it must be the "i-got-something-else-in-my-mind-i-can't-be-bothered" hahaha...whatever lah...haiz...i'm panicking yet i'm not showing it...ain't tt funny...i'm just not showing it even if i want to. Muscle disorder or something XD....ok lah.... i got nothing to say...haiz...gonna watch TV.
H3studio wash up @ 9:55 PM
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Sunday, September 12, 2004
ahahahaha yes...i can be a pain...
H3studio wash up @ 1:16 AM
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Saturday, September 11, 2004
haven't blog for awhile....so the mad tea party has ended. yay. relief...not bad ah..had fun. i'm just gonna summarize. too tired to type. well ppl came and we had out picnic. played lotsa music. take photos, yaoi here and there. act stupid. me and totchi walking along the beach trying to look for hermit crabs. no crabs. saw 2 stingray. both of us cramp. collect nice shells. forgot shells. return back.took photos again. eat. drink. rest. 2 groups seperated. me totchi, amber, zemotion and kaori remain. damn bored. play with wax and candles play techno music. play DeG. play PLC. later me kaori amber zemotion and totchi went down beach to take moonchild pic. talk around the shore. ppl come back. we trying to hide.. shoe found us. talk to us. meet them again. talk to tawn. pack up. go. run for last bus. miss last train. talking about bus. cursing mrt. everyone seperate. hysoka dissapeared. totchi,me,amber,shiro and kaori take same bus. they drop at s11. me kaori go home. i see mother. mother scold. mother grounded me. lalalalala. THE END. ya....-_-; DIE....getaway...no mood to talk already.
H3studio wash up @ 10:25 AM
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