Saturday, April 30, 2005
my pupu looks like a vampire...so i toned down his make up...<3>< but well...whatever...now my main aim is shiwoo...he is still waiting for me in the back rooms of domuya....
anyways...
imustkeepcalmimustkeepcalmimustkeepcalm!! I MUST KEEP CALM i must keep calm! i must keep calm...yes...i can feel anger rising...but i must keep calm...shall not get thoughts get in my way...must keep calm..must keep calm...shall not get worldly relationships/friendships burden self must keep calm must keep calm, shall not get angry over that something, must keep calm must keep calm..ummmmmmmmmm muuuuuuuuummmmmmm....MUst keep calm....x 100
yes... i'm not in my right state of mind lately.
btw...pls dun talk abt MYV on my board. i hate it. despite the MYV under the tag board. failure to do so will result in removal of myv. X_x...i mean it.
H3studio wash up @ 7:19 AM
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Friday, April 29, 2005
To those who people concerned only.
Fuck you all
Thank you very much. I need not explain.
H3studio wash up @ 5:17 AM
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Take the quiz: "Which'>http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=15865">"Which Japanese Symbol Are You? (pics and translations)"
Angry
Something is troubling you...
H3studio wash up @ 7:21 AM
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I've not felt this feeling anymore eversince sho came. But the feeling is back...not as bad but still. I really want woo soo that bad...T_T
WHAT TO DO? WHAT TO DO? i can't stop thinking about him. The saddest part about this is, i might not be able to get him. but if i did i would have to sacrifice cosplay as well as shiwoo. The future for shiwoo and me very bleak. I really want woosoo.....not enough money....so sad....T_T i can't stand it...i can't take it...
H3studio wash up @ 2:25 AM
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Monday, April 25, 2005
Will anyone lend me $200? or $100 from 2 diff ppl? i'll pay you back after may..T_T >+<
T_T i really want woosoo badly...i wan a limited one........i have until may, which isn't too far away...
H3studio wash up @ 8:36 AM
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Saturday, April 23, 2005
You kill for
revenge.
That is because you have lost something or
someone you held very dear. Now you can't seem
to get over the loss that marked your soul, and
the only solution is to go after the one person
who brought all this pain to you. Chances are
you are angry inside and you bottle everything
up and don't talk to anyone about it. People
may want to help, but you think that they can
never understand your pain and only get
frustrated because of this. But it is important
to see all that you have left and be thankful
of that even if you have lost something great.
It may not be true that Times heals all wounds,
but with time and talking about your feelings,
maybe the hurt will ease.
Main weapon: Yourself
Quote: "You can close your eyes to
reality but not to memories" -Stainslaw J.
Lec
Facial expression: Gritted teeth and
teary eyes
What Type of Killer Are You?
Cocktail
?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
GREEN
??Which colour of Death is yours??
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You are Megu! Your quiet, mysterious and just a
little sexy. You enjoy being alone most of the
time. There seems to be a darkness around you.
What Super Dollfie are you most like?
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H3studio wash up @ 11:26 PM
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erm...eto....I WOKE UP TODAY AND I WENT TO SHO'S ROOM...AND HE LOOK DAMN ADORABLE TODAY. SO I TOOK HIM TO MY OTHER ROOM AND HE LOOKS MORE ADORABLE. i dunno....must be the hair..but he looks adorable when he's not suppose tooo.But omg...really lah...something diff about him today....
H3studio wash up @ 9:18 PM
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WAIIIIIIII NO GUNDAM SEED!!!!!!!!!! >< grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~! got so angry that i took out Saiyuki Reload and watch...waaaaaaahahahahaa I LOVE IT. HAKURYU DAMN CUTE...wahahaha i love hakkai!! wahahaha yaoi!! ok nvm....yea watching it now...I HAD WEIRD DREAMS AGAIN! but i wun say lah. damn u gundam! and somemore saiyuki makes me wanna do PLC...-_-;; help?
H3studio wash up @ 9:14 PM
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Friday, April 22, 2005
Brand new dress line up on pre-sale at Dolpa 13th
Weather is becoming nice with early summer breeze.How about a new dress which is nice for going out in the weather like this.
The brand new La Parsonal collections are monotone gothic outfit and sweet rich girly dress
Have a fabulous fashionable time with your SD
- Volks
My boy is not a girl...hahaha i wasn't aware that i bought one of the featured tops that they will be pre-selling at dolpa. Lol i persuaded tec to go get the white one but well he dun want. I got the black one cuz white makes sho look funny. Wahahah sho has to stick to the current clothes that he has. cuz no money to buy him new one. tho i'm eyeing one...but it's like 100+ crazy ah. i rather save for woo soo. I love the stuff at la parsonal collections. nice stuff...i have to re face up sho again....T_T make up is fading alil. got scratchings and stuff...damn.
H3studio wash up @ 5:05 AM
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Hmm tiring day.
You know what? i just don't understand how people can complain so much about not having money to buy whatever they want but then they end up buying other things than what they had wanted initially and spent quite alot on it. Even if it's like $10 i wouldn't want to buy. Even tho i want it so bad or something like that. I rather save. How else do you think i got Sho? besides getting the allowance was not enough. I scrimp and save but the bad part i look like a beggar in the end. I sacrifice buying gothic+lolita bible to pay my costumes, if i dun buy it for 3 months i would be able to pay for my costumes already considering it is a expensive mag. Kera is much cheaper but i have to sacrifice that too...what more do i have to sacrifice? (anything but Omu rice.) Maybe it takes will. I'm tempted by many things too. Now i'm saving up for woosoo and seems quite hard...plus it's harder since i'm not working.
Hmm think about it, if you don't buy all this magazines for a few months and keep the money meant for it...you'll save alot! But anyway one do need expenses. so one should take a lil but not alot. It takes self control. I hope Kouji will be able to save enough after working cuz her mother is giving her a hard time with the whole money thing. It's unfair to her. haiz...but yes..sometimes u must resist the little things that attract you. and maybe stop taking neoprints for awhile. Haiz my costumes cost a bomb. hmm i'm trying to save everyday...bah...sacrifice so many things again. >< i can't even buy my K era. super broke. and i still wanna cut hair...thats like $10 more. I AM SUCH A CHEAPSKATE OK!! aiyoh i'm becoming my father. Thrifty and irritating., bah i dun wanna talk anymore lah. I will learn how to make my own clothes and not buy clothes. Have my own h. Naoto, SeX Pot ReVenGe, Moi meme moitie line~lol then you all buy from me and i make money. $_$ money minded. Must find ways to make money. (cosplay hide and sell lemonade for $2.) :) well ok lah. bye bye. save money!
H3studio wash up @ 4:18 AM
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Thursday, April 21, 2005
i'm...upset over certain things and certain ppl. but i am no one to say. I dread what the future may hold. I only have you. You always have me. Others may come and go but you and i will be forever. i hope. Only you would understand me, only you would care.
ok..enuff...
anyway today my last day at the club...happy...and it wasn't that bad today. i couldn't care lah. and i look at the photos they all took...it was good...but that was only for the events one. the individual ones...were...horrifying...there were only a few that was good...others...i'm sorry to say was rubbish...but yay! i left. hoohaa..
Kyoi and me...we're doing just fine. We're happy and sad together. I love him more and more each day...hmm...yeah...if he is sad i'm sad. i dun wan him to be sad. but reality for him is too harsh. haiz...he's been thinking alot lately...but nvm...
haiz.....i'm not sad or anything now...i'm blank...-_- <--like this exactly...ah well..crappy!~
H3studio wash up @ 4:00 AM
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Oh yes...and about moi dix mois...I had expected that....(Well mana can be a slave driver, too much of a attention seeker, only him is the great one...and this coming from his wife...) ahaha yes...i'm a fan of moi dix mois...but i'm not surprise...*sells moi dix mois pendant* er no lah...yes...i have a bit of sadness...considering juka has a good voice. moi dix mois is my fav...T_T well but like i said. I expected it...really...my (camera whore) mana-sama...is probably partly to blame. :) but you know u got to think it this way. It's good for Juka too. after all it's his life. but you know i think MANA ASK HIM TO LEAVE...cuz. yea it's like that. however fret not fans. Moi dix mois shall continue...with a new vox perhaps? Mana himself? Well we just have to wait and see. After all as long my cute Tohru dun kena sacked i'm happy. Yea...plus mana always talk about himself...(WHY NEVER TAKE ME TO GERMANY WITH YA?!...er i mean...HAVING FUN NE? HUSBAND??) yea he didn't say anything more abt why juka is leaving. so yeah....u gotta ask juka urself...poor juka...but yea..must be musical differences or being to stress working with mana or many other reasons.
H3studio wash up @ 1:57 AM
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haiz..WHY WHY WHY???!?!
http://www.petitiononline.com/gt347981/petition.html
SIGN IF UR A HIDE FAN AND WANTS THE MUSEUM TO STAY.
i hope it works tho....T_T why do things like this happen. I practically wear my hide t-shirt almost everyday. I'M REMINDED BY HIM EVERYDAY. Everytime i see his funeral i cry. Sure i make fun of him. I make fun of everyone. He is special he lives on. It's like he was never dead. Now they are taking something away that makes hide go away completely. T_T Like this is horrible. Hide memorial day is not enough . Afterall it is the place were ppl gather to pay homage to the man. T_T ah i miss him. I MISS THOSE HIDE DAYS! T_T ah you get my drift. I think all hide fans should be feeling the same way.
T_T someone please save the museum...YOSHIKI CAN YOU HEAR ME?! SAVE THE MUSEUM! KOIZUMI!! I DUN CARE LAH. YOU HAVE THE POWER GO AND SAVE THE MUSEUM DAMN IT!!
H3studio wash up @ 1:43 AM
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
What's wrong with me? i keep losing things...i lost sho's top and i just saw it yesterday...WHY CAN'T I FIND MY THINGS? WHY DOES MY ROOM LOOK LIKE ASTORE ROOM. WHY IS IT MESSY AND WHY CAN'T I CLEAN IT UP?? >< i hate this. i really do. whats more i'm hurting now because sho almost fell of the table if i didn't catch him. I'M A KLUTZ. i feel like i dun deserve him.i pity him for getting a fucked up master like me. I'm hugging him and saying sorry to him repeatedly...but i make such a big booboo...T_T i love him so much and this saddens me...i duno what i do without him lah. T_T
H3studio wash up @ 8:42 AM
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
well sho had his date today. hahaha more of that on his blog. abt photography. forget it. dun wish to discuss. bought clothes today. anyways ya. funny thing happen today between me and some hentai *notsobadlooking* japanese guys. damn stupid lah. hahaha anyhow disturb me and jan and tec. lol. whatever. so ya. ate omu rice <3 haha that cyndy owner lady like my sho tho she thot he was a girl. lol. got nice nice pic!! ^_^ heee...ok i really no more money lah. hahahaha i so damn wan my shiwoooooo. T_T
H3studio wash up @ 8:28 AM
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Friday, April 15, 2005
well photography club...later on that again. cuz i dun wan to think abt that now. changed sho's face up again. looks better. and yeah. tried to restring him. much better. but not good enuff.
Currently feeling :UNDERAPPRECIATED. both me and sho. but we got each other.
this could probably turn into one of those "no one understands me. no one appreciates me. What about me? yadda yadda yadda etc." post. but hell i don't need to say so much to get my point straight ne? u probably heard it billion times from other people. so nuff said. figure it out. i only appreciate those who appreciate me. :)
H3studio wash up @ 1:51 AM
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
argh
i hate photography...a little more on that later...rite now....need to make an announcement...
ANY DOLL MASTERS OUT THERE WHO HAS DONE RESTRINGING???? I NEED HELP??? marlz have u done it?? argh...i got the torso part wrong and i dunno what to do... sho has a loose head.. cuz it's done wrongly...sho's legs are not so ok. the left side is too loose.the torso and upper body is not connected properly. the main wrong thing is still the torso part. i lack some tools to do this. so for now, sho has a 360able head he can sit and stand a little..but still the restringing is not good enough.
can some one help me??? T_Ti dun WAN sho to have loose head...T_T i'm such a bad mummy.
i can't even put him back the way he was....
H3studio wash up @ 3:40 AM
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Oh i forgot to say something. i met another dollmaster today. she's nice and she has pretty dolls, i love her EL...omg...yeah..so hot...hahaha and she has a lishe...i told her i would not get girl dolls etc. hahaha and she thinks sho is so sweetlooking...hahaha...well. talked for awhile, exchange no.s and ideas, tips etc...lol. maybe one day we'll meet up again for a photoshoot or a meetup together...Oh yea...cyndy was there...such a beauty...cecile + cyndy is from same story. they're probably siblings....cyndy...so beautiful...tho i have no desire to own her...lol i wannn shiwoooooo....X_x but u know what. i think i get a luts head...+ volks body...i think it's better that way...
H3studio wash up @ 6:23 AM
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Ouch...so pain...so pain...my sho is in pieces...hahaha i sanded him today...oh gawd the fumes...it'll kill ya. for those who haven't sand yet. wear a mask before sanding. yeah...then i coated him with MSC...(i'm just wondering how to put him back 0_o;;) hahaha well i did a face up on him....
Sho is vampire King's youngest son. Lol...vampire prince...he looks hot now...well depends on one preception...some may think he still looks girly...lol...but i think he looks like my vampire prince. nothing gothic really...X_x
H3studio wash up @ 6:02 AM
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Saturday, April 09, 2005
Well today was suppose to hit Domuya and buy stuff for Kyo-chan. But last minute i canceled with Kouji caused i had to go my grandma's house. So i brought kyo-chan along. I help my grandmother cook and stuff like that. Sheesh i didn't know that later the 2 little demons had to come. atleast one of them could behave and handled kyo-chan with love. the other was too rough. i had a hard time keeping kyo-chan away from him. Saw my littlest cousin too. Monchichi brought his friend home and we watch some "scary" indonesion film. So later on had a dinner appointment with Izam and her family. I didn't want to go alone, so i dragged Janys along. (thanks ah) well we ate dinner and left.
People are so mean. the way they handled kyo-chan was so bad. >< i'm so sad...my poor kyo-chan was so damn scared. He's been calling me mummy lately. oh well. i'm ok with that. But later we did had fun. we had a second dinner. we went to Mary Browns and bought fish and chips and also banana split. hahaha took some photos. Kyo-chan ate fish and chips and banana split too. hahaha. Atleast he was happier when we were at Mary Brown and we swing swing around. So after that, janys gave me a lift home (thanks again) and i'm now home, and i'm sure janys reach home already. ahahah.
What a day.
I just hope no one treats my Son like that anymore.I almost cry ok. He is definately not rubbish. He is the one that i love and no one should insult him. T_T...i shall cuddle him. Kyo-chan. I love u so much.
H3studio wash up @ 8:20 AM
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
Haiz haiz...finally finished preparation of pizzas. yum yum. my satay pizza nice hor...hahaha...well with the help of fynah, farrah and Janys. Thanks u guys. So tired. tomorrow gonna be worst. haiz haiz...well after playing we all bake pizzas for ourselves as dinner and watch zatoichi and laugh like crap and also played X-box while janys dozed off and farrah sucking at the game. Kyoichi was damn amused. XD super funny lah...she's so damn sucky at X-box. lol...if ever in war, never choose her as ur comrade. lol. yeah...it's about 10 pm then they both left. ahahhaha so it's just me and kyo-chan...<3
gonna sleep now...nitenite
H3studio wash up @ 7:16 AM
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
damn it...i really want a dreaming shiwoo...if not for my lack of funds i would have purchase him now while he is still available. T_T and i dun think it's coming true..bah.... well the most i get normal shiwoo. i'll still be happy...but i dooo want dreaming head...<3 oh well...T_T heart pain..it's ok...*hugs sho* i have him...but he aso needs a shiwoo ne...so we heart pain together.
H3studio wash up @ 7:59 AM
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Well well...it was so fast that my liking for Soo diminish...i guess dark soo just turns me off. Anywayz...i am pretty sure on getting Shiwoo. But now i got problems lah. i can't save up that fast as i have to pay for alot of other things. T_T. haiz haiz...tomorrow...gonna work like shit again making pizza. I'm just glad that people like my exotic pizza. :) hope to raise another 500 on Friday. gee...if only that was my money....boooohoo.....we all love money dun we? haiz..poor people we are with expensive hobbies.
H3studio wash up @ 7:06 AM
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Kyoichi just found a perfect girlfriend...it's a matter of whether his master wants to buy her or not...X_x hahaha...well...i did say i won't buy a girl doll because of Jun...but maybe oneday i willl... i'm attracted...to Delf Soo...She's like the perfect girl for my beloved son. ahahaha but like i said i only one 3 dolls. Delf Shiwoo and Dollmore Asha <--tho not confirmed. i want a msd size...T_T...but well...i like biggies...so it might not be Asha...it might be Delf Soo. 2 males one female~ yay!!! -_- thats like all together more than $3000...I NEED A JOB...X_x too lazy and too busy to work....fuck. but it's ok. got lots of time to work while waiting to get results...shall find a job that can make me afford to buy Shiwoo and Soo...i think...LUTS ROCKS...actually i want a dreaming shiwoo head...X_x Aiyah..i want so manythings...i think i'm becoming a avid doll collector or something...X_x so much money. i must be crazy. but u guys won't understand...hahaha...hmm...see first about soo lah..i don't really have much of a feeling for her. so yeah..i might not get her in the end. I just thot she and sho would make sucha cute diabetic couple...XD rite Kyoichi?? :)
H3studio wash up @ 1:26 AM
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Well..I guess part of my dream came true...I was sleeping in class when they start playing No Doubt's Tragic Kingdom CD...that particular CD...has something to do with me and Farah C. hah...really. We fought over that certain songs over that CD and well alot of memories...Gee...why her...i just hope whatever i dreamt today won't come true.
My dreams are links of the future.
Anyways Yesterday tiring, for CIP when shopping with mdm Zakiah and went her house to prepare the Pizzas. 4am+ Baking Pizza at home and going to school as normal.
Damn hectic...but the PIZZAs are sold out. yeah... iM ake one...of course ppl want...hahah really,i was incharge of the meat part. hahaha but for the next batch i think i'll cut down on the herbs and spices i use. So it'll won't be so Exotic. XD
Sho's getting cuddly with me nowadays...i love him so much. sweet boy...
H3studio wash up @ 12:31 AM
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Friday, April 01, 2005
BLOGGER ATE MY LONG DREAM POST...WHAT AFUCKER...T_T
H3studio wash up @ 7:02 PM
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my dream today was weird.
As i walked into the halls of some school, i realise i've been going round in circles. The place i was in was probably on a resort island with a big school. I'm confuse, everytime i enter a toilet, i see her. Farah Chew. Yes...there she was standing not answering my questions, looking so tired and dishiveled. She wore plain blue dress like thing. I gave up. I walked here and there and i'm still trap in school. When i finally found my way, atleast out of the building, i saw someone i know...but i can't remember who. The place look like a stadium like place...there was a huge field infront and a stage. Later i heard music with a bunch of poseurs coming down the staircase like as if they were rockstars. Turns out they are having a gig and they look like minas. Kouji was there though. She was with them as their support drummer. But she gave up when she couldn't handle how to play the ska punk kinda songs.
I ran down and met Kouji, i told her something was wrong with this place. We both ran back in and found ourselves in the toilet again. This time not just farah. Alot of other people that i assume i know. they were all looking the same as farah and they walk in a zombie pace. All of them were blur and did not know our presence. Me and kouji freaked out and ran out. later we met somebody who gave us dollfies to take care of. the special dollfies can make very obvious expressions if they do not like you. My dollfie was just fine but someone else wasn't. I took that someone elses doll and treat it properly. She was happy but later she sad again. It turns out she was cosplaying. When the dolls turn human form, the girl doll apologize to me. She said that she was acting that way cuz it's how her character suppose to be. We hug and suddenly i found myself in a final fantasy like costume. Shiro was there and he help take photos of us together. We wanted better photos so we went to this fantasy like place...also there was a fake looking but real waterfall. All of a sudden...i sat on the side of water fall thing and they played Le ciel...and i acted out the scene. Kouji came in and smirk. Later we were attack by those blue blur scary people. They were chasing us. We ran and ran to the theathrette and we were suck in the movie screen. I got seperated with kouji.
I found myself in a somewhat familiar place. I felt i've been here with Wawa and a guy. Well i saw that guy. He walked to me...he looks familiar but i couldn't remember. We talk and talk then well...i got scared of dogs and grab him. He said lots of things to me and indicate that we were falling in love with each other. We had dinner with each other. I hate beaches sometimes...cuz later thats where he brought me and we had a one to one conversation and realise that i do like him. but i ran away...like hyde running away from Luka.
I was in the computer room of the school and we were talking online. Online, he asked me, what about us? since we know that we like each other. I told him i do not know as i'm afraid and not ready for such stuff. There was a video of us. so romantic...but...i still could not say yes...I ran out of the room...THE BLUE PEOPLE WERE THERE...Kouji leading as she was chase by them. I join her and we ran like crap to the theartrette. Ran and Ran ...the movie screen was uneffective. We couldn't go back. We were trap...we were trap...ran and ran...but we were trap ...
The dream ends there...i woke up to seee a comforting face...my son....what a dream....i should put the dream catcher in my mom's room....
The end.
Thanks for reading.
H3studio wash up @ 7:02 PM
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