Monday, May 30, 2005
I don't know what i'm feeling...I don't know what i'm feeling at all. Confuse. Mind conflict. No it's not just dollfies. i do have a life outside of that realm. >.> Jealousy can be very irritating. I can be very jealous over certain things and i can get very offended easily or read things too deeply. thats me. i'm also a trouble maker.
Besides that...i don't know. I haven't really been in touch with J-rock for awhile. I do listen to it everyday...just that i don't care about being updated. :: does that consider me a posuer? hah:: Cosplaying on the other hand...i'm back to square one...OH BELIEVE ME...i've become...too shy or something to go out like that anymore. i don't knowwhy. Concious? even going out visual kei for me has become a big task. what happen? have i lost my self confidence. i don't know. i think i'm also suffering from quiet peer pressure. Peer pressure that is not seen from others but by one self.
Another thing. I'm an attention whore. hahaha really. I cannot be forgotten. You could say i'm almost as bad as someone. heh. Then again...even if i'm one, i am not stupid to ask for stupid attention. Maybe i'm just bored to write all this rubbish. Have fun all of you, i'll rot and die. haha..happily of course. :)
H3studio wash up @ 8:48 AM
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Sunday, May 29, 2005
well apparently i can't see my own entries on the blog but some people can. so i guess it's ok to keep this lovely layout. I'm very upset lah. ><><>< Shin and me are upset. I'm glad shin is here to support me. T_T I'm really thankful to Janys....damn we'll get fat together if we eat unnecessarily like just now....T_T
H3studio wash up @ 7:56 AM
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Friday, May 27, 2005
THE STORY
Ken : So tell me ur problem haido...
Hyde: my butt hurts..cuz...
Hyde: Gackt bended me this way and we..."OHHHH BABYY mmMmPpH"
Tetsu: HE WHAT??? grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Hyde: Aww don't be jealous tet-CHAN!!
Tetsu: ARGF GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR i must beat gackt
Tetsu:You damn rite i'm jealous!
SOME WHERE IN JAPAN....
Gackt: What? like tetsu found out???
Gackt: kkkkkyyeaaahh....me and hyde...it was great man...he bended like that.....*Snort nose bleed* oh this? hahaha restocking our condom supply.
The end.
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Tuesday, May 24, 2005
To people who are involved in June 4th for Kurai Miyavi booth
Kazukijun just msg me and told me it's confirm.
SO I NEED YOU GUYS TO SEND ME A LIST AND PRICE OF WHAT YOU ARE SELLING. this is very important.
As for booth payment, it will be settle again.
Please PM or send me and email to inform me who is selling stuff so i can see how much i can charge u guys for the booth.
Thank you.
H3studio wash up @ 6:12 AM
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Still waiting
Now i'm sitting here, I'm waiting
Now i'm sitting here, I'm thinking
I don't know what the hell I'm feeling
Somebody please tell me now.
i feel so lost
my live so meaninless
i'm not sure what's happening
Just that,
Here i am, Here i am
Waiting for you.
Chorus
I'm praying
I'm hoping,
that we would be together.
I'm crying
I'm dying,
each day that passes by.
I'm wanting
i'm craving
to feel your touch.
But here i am,
Still waiting, Still waiting for you.
REPEAT 1st paragraph
I try to comfort myself
to picture you beside me
to feel your ghostly touch
but hell it's just an illusion
Chorus
Bridge
I could cry a river
But even if i did, it might be a never
Only you could save me from my misery
save me from being crazy...
Chorus...
H3studio wash up @ 12:27 AM
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Monday, May 23, 2005
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=18245837 <--- please join k? if ur his family.
My kyoi is currently having an amnesia due to excessive hidden booze and an accident this morning. He was so upset before he lost his memory. lol at least he remembers me. but he doesn't remember the rest...T_T so when u meet him pls reintro. he doesn't even know shin...who is at janys's house. He's been awfully quiet and is staring in to space...:( hope someone can cheer him up...pffft...
H3studio wash up @ 3:11 AM
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Your Birthdate: March 4 Being born on the 4th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer.
You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize.
Sincere and honest, you are a serious and hard working individual.
Your feelings are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times.
The number 4 has something of an inhibiting effect on your ability to show and express affections, as feeling are very closely regulated and controlled.
You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details.
There is a good deal of rigidity and stubbornness associated with the number 4.
H3studio wash up @ 1:52 AM
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Ok i'm very confused. So before i confuse myself further i'm gonna write it down
$100 to Auntie pats
$100 to Certain someone
$100 to my commision
OH NO...then how to save for renji?? hmm not forgetting sensei...bah...shall..owe her again...
next month
$100(rounded off) to Sensei
$100 to renji fund
$100 for self and dollfie??
ARGH...
i dunno.......... >< bah..at this rate dunno how to pay my father. hmm nvr mind i shall work. after Os.
H3studio wash up @ 1:22 AM
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Friday, May 20, 2005
You are Frankie......congradulations...you are from
Texas and have four chipped teeth, that
"don't make me a f******
hick!".you're sweet, but are pretty much
an asshole sometimes. you dont like authority
just like you didnt like it when you were ten.
you were in another band before MCR, but they
split up a while back.You play guitar.
What My Chemical Romance Member are you?
kawaiii!!! XD ....hehehe..frankie....XDDDDDDDD I'M NOT OOOOKAAAYYY~ *Sings*
H3studio wash up @ 9:33 PM
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Monday, May 16, 2005
Whats my BJD style?
1 - What is the clothing style?
Kyoi: boyish, Visual, Lolita, Fantasy
Shin: Boyish, Gothic Punk, Visual, Mod, Classic, Fantasy
2 - Make-up style?
Kyoi: Natural, girly, boyish, Visual
Shin: Boyish elegant charm
3 - Usual/almost default wig style?
Kyoi: Short
Shin: Short
4 - Personality style?
Kyoi : Shy, angst, quite calm, Naive, quiet, experimental
Shin: Cheeky, intelligent, bad tempered, split personality, Cunning, sincere, truthful and Loud. Snobby and cocky
5 - Music style (not bands, style only...)?
Kyoi : Goth music, Visual kei, Poprock, new metal
Shin: Metal bands, The beetles, The doors, Visual Kei, Anguro Kei
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H3studio wash up @ 5:11 AM
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Sunday, May 15, 2005
Went out for dinner today...then the guy ask me where my boyboy is a.k.a kyoichi. hahaha...my dad says kyoichi is fishing...X_x lol...wth...heh finish my hwk. i'm tired.
H3studio wash up @ 9:11 AM
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Saturday, May 14, 2005
Suicidal-- You are suicidal Mana, always
wishing for Kami to come back and depressed by
the things that would make most people happy...
but because you're so pretty we all feel your
pain. ;__; WE WUB YEW~!
Which random pointless Mana thought are you?
hah
H3studio wash up @ 10:32 PM
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hmm yadda yadda i think some ppl already explain what happen today. :( got pretty upset that my darling kyoi got dirty. T_T (tawn: it's not ur fault) i dun blame anyone. T_T i just got sad cuz it's shin's body and it's only been out a day...and now it's filthy. (Marlz: lend me the sponge. :) thanks ) but yea...who likes a dirty dollfie? haha... :( but ok....the rest of the day was ok. met kouji and took puri and eat bread then went home. anyway. Shin won't be coming out as often as sho. because i dun wan anything happen to his pretty face. so he'll stay unless got photoshoot. these 2 my precious~!
haiz...gotta give sho another face up. T_T i thot dun have to do but i guess i have to now because the make up is...fading...X_x ...so ya...what to do? i'll give him later.
love both of them dearly.
H3studio wash up @ 7:04 AM
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Ah open the door to my house and smelled turpentine. I started coughing violently and vommited. i swear i'm allergic. anyway just got back from Domuya. Weird day...hahaha...kena film...so maybe will be inside some channel news asia thing. X_x. ha. we'll sho looks good today. hahaha gonna get shin soon! yay...hahah...
btw...i'm really not a bung. heh. and btw...she's not my gf. heh.
H3studio wash up @ 7:25 AM
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Monday, May 09, 2005
Well today was stressful...maths...argh...can't really do it...plus now i'm having that time of the month...like around 4 ish? hahaha. well brought Kyoi out for dinner! mother played with him. so nice. I feel like he's really accepted in the family now. I mean we all do everything together. except went my cousins are there. must protect him from little dirty fingers. :) so glad. even the cook who came to serve us was nice to him. he was like "hello! whatcha looking at? are u a girl or a boy?" hahaha..he was nice to kyoi. I like that. I love him so much. And u know what? He's not loose anymore...yay!
H3studio wash up @ 8:47 AM
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Sunday, May 08, 2005
Well after i just puke out all my dinner....<3 here i am...Happpy mother's day. gave mother a cake and sushi. hahaha went grandma's house and celebrate.
:)
after eating...i sat one corner and groan due to stomach and wanting to vomit....
haha...so yeah..i dun wan type som much. tata..
H3studio wash up @ 8:35 AM
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Saturday, May 07, 2005
Kawaii...
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Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Kyoichi and Peace.
H3studio wash up @ 9:04 AM
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Sunday, May 01, 2005
i was suppose to blog yesterday but i fell asleep...
Anyway met up with Hysoka and Totchi @ woodlands and go causeway point and slack there until 6 then we went off to BBQ 0_0 the house cat was scary lah...the poor hamsters...hahaha but we had to leave the hammies in the house then we brought all the food out to the BBQ pit. It was raining sia...so we started at 7:30 where there is no rain...the place was freaking wet. but well once the fire started going...wootzzz.
The music was loud and so not my taste...but what to do...hahaha consolation tho...they actually played Korean hip hop and Hys and me trying to figure out who sang it. I used to like korean hip hop...it's quite nice...hahaha then you can see totchi cringing one corner.."Koooroosuuu....anti korea" lol yeah...unfortunately it still got back to those normal gangsta whatever they call it... -_-; i can't take it...times like this i do not mind techno. lol. Yeaaa so eat a little..wander here and there and trying to set another BBQ pit...That fortunate day...hys got a new nick name...Mrs. Tongs. XD lol...it's so sad lah...the fire keep on dying and berm was like don't jinx me. shut up mrs tongs. hys chanting "Die die die" lol wtf. then later we go fry chicken and stuff like that. ate fish first. ohhh and then it was time for the birthday thing...0_0 after all the happy birthdays and all...Nano went to throw flour on her auntie's head and till her auntie throw back and her and soon she throw at everyone and me....X_x hit hys most and totchi a lil. you can't really tell if it got in his hair. hahaha then all sponteneously ran around armed with flour and try to stain the other. Wahahaha me and totchi wrestle with Farrah restraining him and FLOOOOOOOOOOUR.... haahaah so we all got dirty...flour everywhere...X_x lucky i never where nice nice. Waste of flour...XD Then later we all packed up and left. Reached home nearly 1 am already...haha but it was fun....
Damn you totchi potchi make me hold hamsters....and PUTTING MORE HAMSTERS ON ME...X_x baka...
Oh i received unexpected email today....from crosscradle.
>Hello Kyoru san,
>I just send you Tai-On, our new CD by air.
>Maybe it arrives to you in a week!>
>Your friend,
>Say
X_x i was like huh? ok i very slow reaction...then i was like OOOOOOOOOOOOO. hahahaha wow...say actually kept his words...A MAN of his words. Well i guess i'll be looking forward to it...then i can drool on his illustration...damn shit lah..i wish i can draw and paint or whatever he did like that...so nice...envious.
haiz...my kyoi-chan...thank god he feels better now, yesterday he was angry over the person who bullied him. hmmm but i can see a smug smile from him now...i wonder if he...never mind.
but anyways...he will be much protected when i get my carrier. :) love my boy.
H3studio wash up @ 7:16 PM
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